Christmas Bliss and Fighting For My Dreams.

It's Christmas Eve. 

I'm sitting alone in the living room of my parents house, 

drinking white wine and watching the Christmas lights glisten on the tree. 

My family is in the kitchen, sitting around the table laughing. 

I'm about to join them, but I linger, only for a moment, 

to savour the sweet sound of their voices in this exact moment. 

Bliss. 

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13 days until departure,

 and I feel the familiar feeling of anxiousness creeping up on me. 

The feeling of "what if…"

What if I don't raise the $4,200 I need by January 7th? 

What if I end up getting so close to my dream, only to watch it crumble before my eyes?

What if.. What if I can't go to Thailand because of money? 

"I'm so forgetful, but you always remind me:

You're the only one who brings me peace."

These song lyrics have been running through my head all day today.

I've been meditating on them, speaking them over myself, praying them into existence. 

The truth is, I need help getting to Thailand. 

I only  have 13 days to raise $4,200 or I will not be able to go. 

I've been praying over the last few days about how I am to go about all this. 

How do I ask, yet again, for MORE money? 

Am I even supposed to go, Jesus? 

And if not, what am I supposed to be doing? 

How do I make people see? 

How do I make them hear?

The only answer I've received is "Trust."

Okay, God. You got it. 

I'll trust You. 

I'll trust You with everything I have.

I'm also going to fight for my dream of being a long term missionary in Thailand.

I'm going to fight for my dream to tell the untold stories of women trapped in the sex trade. 

I'm going to fight for my dream to go there and fight for them. 

So, 

I am asking you, begging you, to please consider donating to my dream. 

To God's dream of bringing hope and life to these women. 

I'm asking you to join me in the fight against human trafficking. 

I'm asking you to dream with me… 

If you feel led to donate, please do so by clicking here. 

If you cannot donate, please PLEASE pray that all the money will come in by January 7th. 

Share this blog with everyone you know. 

Once again, a thousand thank you's would never be enough to all who have already donated. 

I pray you will be blessed 100 fold for the blessing you have been to me.