Love God and Do What You Want.

Love God and do what you want. 

This was a phrase my team said a lot while we were in Kenya. 

Brit and I, as leaders wanted them to realize the freedom they have in Christ

and so we would always say this tiny little phrase at least a million times a day. 

Though it is a tiny phrase, it is full of power. 

These seven words have the power to revolutionize someone's life. 

They have revolutionized mine, and I've seen first hand the freedom these words carry. 

Once again, I find it rippling through my thoughts on a daily basis. 

I have a choice to make, and it needs to happen now. 

And lately I feel like I've gotten caught up in the mechanics of things

and I've forgotten just how much freedom I have. 

I've spent countless hours this past week trying to figure out my future.

I've been running around, trying to figure out what His will is and where I should go.

"What do I do, God? 

Where do I go?

What if I miss out on something amazing?

What if I give up something amazing? 

What if I just get stuck here?

What if I'm never here again?

What if I mess something up because of my bad decision?

What if I am living out of my flesh?

What do I doooo??"

This is a fairly solid look into my thoughts the past few days. 

And I can't help but look at what I just typed and laugh because all that comes to me is a fun little melody made up by one of my Kenya girls. 

"Do what you wanna do, don't do what you don't wanna doooooo."

Ultimately that's what I feel like God is saying to me. 

To do what I want. 

And what I want is scary. 

I don't know how this is going to work out. 

I don't know if it will.

Once again, I feel like Peter. 

Get out of the boat, Allison.

Okay God, you got it. 

Why am I so bent on figuring out if I'm going to sink or not? 

I just need to love God and do what I want.