Yesterday marked 100 days since moving to Thailand.
It's crazy to think that time has gone that fast.
Some days it feels like I've been here forever,
and others it feels as though I only just stepped off the tarmac.
The last 100 days have been filled with more beauty than my heart can often comprehend.
I have seen team after team come through SHE and be moved by what God is doing on Bangla.
I've seen young men and women speak truth over ladyboys and pray healing over someone on crutches. Because of their boldness, we saw both walk away healed.
I've stood by and prayed as a young prostitute cried into the arms of a girl the same age as her.
I've walked down a soi that was untouchable two years ago.
I've hugged and laughed with more bar girls than I can count.
I've done so many things and seen God show up in so many ways…
And as I reflect on my time in Thailand so far,
I am in awe of the fact that I get to be here, where my heart is so alive.
Jesus loves me so well.
Thailand truly is home for me.
I forget sometimes how many times I cried to the Lord,
how many times over the last two years I prayed, asked, begged to be right where I am.
How many nights did I lay in my bed dreaming of walking Bangla, my heart longing to be here?
Too many to count.
However,
I can't stay here.
Not without help at least.
I currently have no one financially supporting me,
which means that I've been using my savings to live my life here in Thailand.
I bought a moto, which was expensive, but has honestly been a huge blessing, and essential to my life here as it allows me to be mobile.
And it will actually be cheaper in the long run given that taxis/transportation is what most of my money was going to.
I am also currently taking Thai classes so that I can better my ministry in Patong,
but I won't be able to take them next month without financial help.
But I know God is faithful.
I know God is my provider.
And as I look at the number in my bank account getting smaller and smaller,
knowing that I don't have a single financial supporter,
I am challenged to trust that God can provide for me 100%.
I am still human,
I still get scared some days, not knowing if I'll be able to pay rent next month.
But in the end, I have to come to a place of rest knowing that if God feeds the sparrows,
He will surely feed one whom He dearly loves.
And with that,
my heart is at peace knowing that I am right where I am meant to be,
even when things don't line up,
even when I feel like I don't know what God is doing,
even when I don't know where the money is going to come from.
Cheers to the next 100 days.
And the 100 after that.
Cheers to God being provider, and a God of 100%.
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